On Monday I was taking a 2.5 second bathroom break at work. I take them alltoofrequently. In fact, in between every class. So, I pee essentially every 45 minutes give or take. Lucky me, though-I still don't pee in the middle of the night [knock on wood]-so I just figure I make up for it during the day.
Anyway, back to my bathroom break.
I was sitting there-and seriously, suddenly it just hit me how close this pregnancy is to being over.
Some of you will tell me that "these last weeks will dragggg by". I hear you, I do. But, I just ain't buying it right now. My life is waytoohectic right now to make anything go by slowly. Between finishing up my grad classes, having three art shows, trying to get a substitute acclimated to my classroom, my maternity photo shoot, Easter, my birthday, and lots of other things strewn in there...I can't see it going by slowly at all.
So, all of a sudden I got this shock of reality.
I'm having a baby.
Holy crap. I'm having a baby.
Having my shower definitely added to the realism of the situation.
Baby stuff strewn about my home, being organized by my sister, my friends, my hubby and I. Stacking diapers in the cute little bin next to the changing pad. Putting clean sheets and a bumper on her crib. Organizing her drawers by size and styles of clothing. Cleaning and organizing her closet. The list goes on.
You guys...I'm having a baby.
So, that little toilet epiphany led me to ask a few other teacher friends that day (who are moms) if this shocking reality happened to them, too (I always like to reassure myself I'm not that weird). They all reassured me that YES, indeed...you do get to a point where you realize it's really happening, and you ain't slowin' that clock down.
And please, don't get me wrong, I am dying to meet her. But, wow. This is REALLY happening. I am really going to be a mom. We are really going to be parents. I won't be pregnant forever. She WILL come, and it will be much sooner then I can truly grasp right now.
This little miracle, made in love, knit together in my womb by her Heavenly Father--this precious, precious gift will be here before I know it.
...and gosh darn-it, I couldn't be more thrilled.