I walked into our house church Sunday morning and I must have looked 'down'. Immediately our pastors wife said, "Whats going on? I can see something's up..."
I said, "Ohh nothing. It's just...I wanted today to be the day."
[You see, we'd been guessing all along when this baby would be coming, and Declan's guess was always the weekend I hit 38 weeks...but, no cigar.]
She grabbed me and gave me a big hug.
On our way out the door that afternoon, she said...."Hey Katie...just remember, God's timing is always absolutely perfect. Remember that!"
I know that.
It's true, too.
One thing after another in my life has always proved that God's timing is absolutely the most PERFECT ever. Truly. In regards to getting jobs, in regards to the timing of pregnancy, of buying a house, of EVERYTHING. It's been undeniable that God's hand of protection and timing has been on me and my husband.
Why would I doubt that now?
Truth is-I don't doubt it. It's just that my 'tired and worn out' flesh has taken over.
This morning in the car, my song came on. You see, I've been listening to this one CD over, and over, and overrrrrrr again this entire pregnancy.
I was in the Dunkin Donuts drive-thru (don't judge), and it hit me.
Why had I considered this my song the whole time? Something in me knew this song was speaking to me the entire time. It comforted me when I felt (and feel) like the future is still unknown. It comforted me when I was having 'down' days and felt guilty about the possibility of putting my future daughter in daycare (not judging those who do--it's just my extreme desire to be a stay at home mom that's all).
The song's main line is: "Strength will rise (in you) as you wait upon the Lord."
The hardest part.
What I'm struggling with RIGHT now.
Waiting for the 'unknown' to become known.
Handing over those things that are out of your control and being willing to WAIT for God's perfect timing--his best.
I fully believe that our daughter (as impatient as I am), will be coming when the timing is right-no, p.e.r.f.e.c.t.
He's never failed me yet.