To be honest, I listened...I nodded...I realized there would be a change and this would also happen to me. But, I didn't realize the lack of "control" I'd have to give up.
Control meaning, keeping my house neat and tidy pretty much at all times. I was always one of those people who liked to keep it pretty neat most of the time (was it "clean"? Not necessarily. But, neat. For sure!). In fact, the day I got home from the hospital, and my achy body should have just sat on the couch recovering---I waddled around organizing all the 'bringing home baby' stuff you acquire. Because I just could.not.handle the mess.
It used to always look like this:And actually? I've had to come to grips with that. I've had to let go of some of that control in having the perfect home appearance. I started to realize that it wasn't quite so important.
Because--the less time I spend picking up every little toy, blanket, book or boppy we've got laying around, the more time I'm spending with my girl.
[blankets everywhere, burp clothes galore, dirty dishes hanging around, every baby toy known.to.man. laying around, and messy couch pillows...sigh...I hate messy couch pillows.]Because as cliche or typical it is to say that she's growing up every.single.day--ohmygosh, SHE IS. I don't want to miss things because I'm too busy tidying up all the time.
Have I let go of the habit completely? Heck no. My husband will tell you that as soon as we lay the baby down at night, the first thing I do is scurry around and straighten up. It gives me a more relaxed feel for the few hours that he and I stay up and have 'us' time. I always make sure to have dishes done, and the pillows...ohhh the throw pillows-they MUST be perfect on the couch so when I come down in the morning it at least appears neat, for 5 minutes, at least.
My house isn't perfect anymore, and neither am I. Obviously.
But, I've definitely become more laid back over the last 2 1/2 months, and I try to focus my time on my growing girl.
The house...the tidying....it can wait.
Because I most certainly don't want to miss little moments, like the first time she discovers her cute little feet:
[Thanks, Jess & Penny for the sweet trumpettes!]