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Tuesday, November 30, 2010

In efforts to pick up my pieces

I've had a rough past few days. Nothing I'd like to get into---just a little 'net bullying cowards behind their computer per-say.

On one hand, I kind of feel like I'm a bit shattered into different pieces. On another hand, I just feel a little bruised I guess.

What I don't like? Is that I let some of the disgusting crap (and lies) that were said about me penetrate to my soul and that's.so.not.me

I'm a tough, roll-off my back type of chick. But, apparently I'm not. Or not anymore. And I don't like it.

Because, dude. Words HURT. They hurt, and they can cut to the core. 

My husband tells me it's just bound to happen. Mean people are just that---mean. People who are unhappy with themselves--yea, they? They pick out every itty bitty flaw you have and rub it in your face over, and over and over again.

He tells me to let it roll off my back. He tells me I'm none of those things I was accused of. He knows how to help me pick up back up the pieces and make a little sense of myself.

Because the truth is?

I can look in the mirror on a daily basis and know I'm being true to myself, true to God, and true to my family. I'm happy. I have an amazingly incredible husband, gorgeous daughter and caring family. I have people who support me, love me, and are there for me. I have friends who know my true character, readers who feel like they know me because of my honesty, and a God that forgives me when I mess up.

So those lies? I don't have to listen to--or believe. They aren't me. That's not me. I refuse to let others negativity bring me down. It's hard, and it sucks sometimes, but it's life.

And? With all that--I decided to chill out on the facebook/twitter home front for a bit. I need to clear my head. But blogging still remains. I think. Oh, and the facebook/twitter strike is not forever. Just until I feel better about the balancing act that is life.

Thanks for your constant support. Although I write because I desperately need the outlet, your support has been an awesome side bonus.

Hugs on this Tuesday morning.

[For the record, none of this happened on this blog or on twitter :) ]

51 comments:

  1. will be missing your tweets and banter back and forth with lucymariec :) i hope that those people who "bullied" you feel guilt for being rude. They need to remember that Santa is watching! oh and karma comes back around! love reading your blog, hope you keep it up!

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  2. I went through the trouble of trying to start a twitter account, at work , where twitter is blocked, to rant and rave a little (what bashers do is definitely too much like school yard trash talk). Only to find out that, I couldn't actually do anything till you ok'ed me a twitter friend. Sad to say I was a little bummed that I couldn't give some one a piece of my mind. ( I don't like bullies). I tried.

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  3. Oh Katie,
    I'm so sorry you are going through this. It's hard, I know. But just remember that those lies and such aren't true and that you have a wonderful husband and a beautiful baby to pull you through.

    I don't know you personally, but feel like I do as I read your blog every day, I get your honest feelings and great pictures of your family. It brightens my day.

    Keep your chin up and hope you will continue to blog.

    Kelly

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  4. =( SO sorry Katie! Unfortunately when people are jealous they have no other way to express it so they do it from behind their computers! Just remember that with every hater you have a TON more people who love you! Come back soon! =D

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  5. I just started out in blog world, although I have been one of your followers for the past 6 mos. You are honest and true and you have my dream(a baby), so stopping in to see Emeline's sweet face keeps my hopes high! I just wanted to comment and give you some encouragement to keep on strutting! You have every reason to be proud and to feel blessed. Don't let people bring you down(as easy as that is to say, I know it's harder to actually live it). Well im so happy to finally comment! Hope you have a joyous day!

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  6. I'm mad for you, hun. Ugh. Women can be so ridiculous. I'm an email or phone call away if you need to vent. I'll listen. I've been where you are.

    Love you to pieces.

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  7. I'm so sorry my dear! Bullying in any fashion is so wrong. And it does hurt. I'm sorry this is happening! Looking forward to the day your back on Twitter and such!

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  8. I'm so sorry my dear! Bullying in any fashion is so wrong. And it does hurt. I'm sorry this is happening! Looking forward to the day your back on Twitter and such!

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  9. I'm so sorry my dear! Bullying in any fashion is so wrong. And it does hurt. I'm sorry this is happening! Looking forward to the day your back on Twitter and such!

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  10. Sorry about whatever you're dealing with. The internet can be rough...sometimes I feel like people forget that there's someone behind the screen.

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  11. You know my offer to have your back still stands. Forever. I miss you tons on twitter. In fact, I think I dreamed about it last night. Mwah!

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  12. Oh my dear Katie, some people are in so much pain they feel the need to strike out at whomever they can, and its usually someone who has exactally what they are longing for. While I don't know you IRL, I feel like I do. You are an amazing writer and I love reading your blog. So I hope that you'll keep it up.

    I'll miss you on Twitter! I've totally got your back if you need me. xoxo

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  13. so sorry sweety!! you keep ur head up b/c you are an amazing mommy and wifey!! you are such a beautiful person on the inside and outside..and not to mention u are super crafty! U got it going on and some ppl are just jealous!!!!!! sending you hugs sweet girl!!!

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  14. Hey! So, I have been reading your blog since you were pregnant and I love reading your stories and how honest you are. Don't let people get to you, b/c you are awesome. I hate when people get that way, I mean, who are they to judge?

    Just keep on, keepin' on. You rock!

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  15. First of all let me say, you are exactly right! The people that cyber-bully just have nothing better to do, and mostly they pick on people they admire! So take it as a compliment : )

    I hope you will come back to twitter soon, I miss you!

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  16. You already know my feelings on the subject so I won't rehash it here. But my offer still stands, I'm ready and willing to kick some virtual ass for you. I miss you already. Come back soon, friend.

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  17. i don.t post comments on many blogs, but i felt to. just to tell you that i admire your courage, even though you might not see it like that. i am [a bit] jealous of your attitude, the "roll off my back" one. i really do.
    and i applaud you for deciding not to let it get to you.
    and people do come back to this blog because you are honest and that.s what makes this blog have 600+ readers [not saying that.s what you're after]. and at times i said to myself "dude, that girl is way too sincere", and still, here i am, after deciding to cut the list of my blogs that i follow, i still come back here every day. i admire your sincerity, and honest and you. to tell you smth, in whole honesty, there are things i can learn from you. thank you for not being just another blog on blogspot.
    sorry this is too long, just wanted to say it.

    Ioana

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  18. Please do not let what others say that's negative bring you down. They think their opinion matters and that they have to let everyone know how smart and (supposedly) superior they are when in actuality they are just a sad, lonely person with nothing better to do than to try and bring others down to their low place. From what I know you are a smart, honest, loving, adorable (and many other positives) person who lives life to the fullest and has an amazing family. I miss your tweets, etc and hope that you start feeling better soon because those negative losers aren't worth the time of day. I'm always here for you if you need a chat.

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  19. Mean people,yuck.
    People who make rude comments are probably not real happy with themselves. I mean, do you think they take time from their loving, happy relationships to criticize someone anonymously? I love your blog and read it every day. Keep your head up!

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  20. I'll pick on those who pick on you :)

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  21. Im sorry girl. I think youre gorgeous and you have a beautiful family and people are just jealous so they feel like they have to try to bring you down. Keep your chin up:)

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  22. Going to miss your posts...your blog is amazingly funny and honest - sending *hugs* your way!

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  23. Mean people suck. I don't know what happened, but I hope that you're feeling better soon. We love you and your blog!

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  24. Rude. I'm so sorry hon!! But you're right - You know you. And we know you. They obviously do not. Chin up sweetheart!! Love you!!

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  25. Wow. This is the 2nd blogger in a row that I read that's going to be taking an internet break. I was convicted last night that I need to take an "internet fast". So I'll be less chatty on FB and blogger as well (finally signed up for twitter, but I can't find anyone... looks like I'm not missing much).
    I love reading your blog. You crack me up and your family is the cutest. Try to forgive (it'll help you) and move on. Hang in there and keep being your sweet self. :)

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  26. People are such buttheads.

    I had a week like that last month, where I just got offline for a few days, because I was feeling all disillusioned about the buttheads on the internet.

    Sorry you're having a sucky week. I'm here if you need anything.

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  27. O honey..... Misery loves company, that is for sure. Those people must not know you (and I feel like I have gotten to know you, at least somewhat well). So, keep on keepin on and don't let those buillies ruin your honesty. We love it here in blog world :-)

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  28. *sigh*, sad to hear this because I, myself have had a few incidents lately and I just do not understand why people say the things they do. I've just realized that I keep the blog for myself, my baby, and the truly kind readers and have to ignore everyone else. Glad you have a similar attitude and glad that I'm not the only one having issues..

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  29. I hope one day she gets a taste of her own medicine.
    Hugs, hope to see you back soon on twitter/facebook.

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  30. I know easier said than done, but keep your head hight! They obviously are jealous if they're starting stuff with you. Hope everything works out!

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  31. Yes, mean people will be mean. And I find with blogging, the more people that love you and your blog, the worse the hate is. It's more jealousy.

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  32. I don't understand how or why people are so obnoxious and horrible. We love you!

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  33. Katie,
    I have been following you for a while and every day just getting the chance to read your blog brings a smile to my face. You have a wonderful family and your writing and photography is amazing. Your a hard worker and are doing what you love. Some people are just bitter and jealous of others. You inspire me and many others to strive to do what they love every day.
    Sincerely, Kirsten

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  34. Katie:

    I don't know you in real life. But I do know on the net that you are GREAT! You are a wonderful person! I can definitely tell that you are an awesome person in real life too--by your posts and the wonderful people you have in your life! You are a great person in my book, just so you know :) And I CAN read people!

    -Kishah

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  35. Oh lovey, I am SO sorry you had to deal with mean people! You are one of the sweetest, most genuine people I have ever "met" and I am so blessed to know you! {{HUGS}}

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  36. I'm sorry that people were being mean. :( And though I have no idea what was said....words seriously do hurt - and I know how crappy it can make you (anybody) feel.

    Hope you are having a better day today!

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  37. I'm sorry that people are being mean! Just like you said they are just unhappy with themselves and they are just jealous of what you are and what you have!

    You are a beautiful woman with a wonderful husband that loves you to pieces and beautiful mommy to your darling daughter that loves you no matter what!! You are very real on what you blog and twitter and fb! You're an amazing person! Don't let them get to you hun! Keep your head high!

    I love your blog & twitter! :)

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  38. I meant who you are* sorry hun! itouch doesn't like me much! LOL! Keep your head high love!

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  39. I cannot imagine who would have anything negative to say about you - like I have told you before, I find you to be so inspiring. Nonetheless, I'm sorry you're going through some bullying and hope it all blows over soon.

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  40. I am new follower, but have read a lot of your blog and you are just a sweetheart! And it's sad that people have to hide behind the internet to "bring people down". The internet world can be cruel!!
    All that matters is you are true to yourself and your family, and that you are happy with yourself and your life. Forget all of the negative nancys out there!

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  41. I'm sorry you've been going through this lately. That's kind of why I stepped back from Twitter/Fb/blogging recently. I've :never: knock on wood gotten mean comments on blogging/twitter, but my friends have, and I just needed to reevaluate things. Sometimes it can be unhealthy, and I know it causes me to covet/be jealous which is something I don't want to do!! I'll be thinking of you. Hope you have a great break, I'll miss you!!

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  42. Hugs back to you today:-) I love your blog and how real you come across on it! Don't let it bother you too much...although I know how hard that is...sounds like you have an amazing husband to help you through. Something someone once told me was that hurting people hurt others. It doesn't make it right but it helps me to think it really isn't about anything I have done or said.

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  43. Ugh! Why are people so mean?! I just don't understand it. I know I don't know you personally but I just adore reading your blog and seeing all the wonderful pictures you take of your family! You are such a sweetheart and I hope you cheer up soon!

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  44. oh noooo. im so sorry. people can be asses sometimes. i know it's easier said than done to 'let it go' because i too, hold onto and take negative comments extremely too personal.

    hoping things clear up for you. remember, you have friends and family that DO love you and admire what you do. ♥

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  45. Mean people suck! I'm sorry you had to go through that. Go give that beautiful daughter some cuddles and you'll forget all about it. :)

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  46. UGH! Why are people like that? Being mean just gets us nowhere. I hope that you can get through and come on back where people are nice. Like here! :)

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  47. I'm so sorry you're having to go through this kind of crap right now, Katie. I mean, how old are we?? Obviously I have no clue what happened or why, but, I can't see ANY reason why someone would want to make up lies/start rumors about you. It just baffles my mind, the immaturity of some people!

    I know this has nothing to do with your issues, but, I just wanted to let you know that I absolutely love reading your blog every day. When I look at all the blogs that have updated each day, yours is always one of the first ones that I read. :) You always have something fun/interesting to say, and you're such a great writer (and, it doesn't hurt that you have an adorable little Miss that you share pictures of! ;) )

    So, even though there may be one or two bullies out there....try and remember all of us out in blog-land who think you're pretty awesome! ;) Sorry to sound like such a dork, but, it's true! **HUGS**

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  48. Gosh Momma...I am soo sorry for what you are going through!!! NOT COOL or fun @ all!!! I know, from personal experiences, that it is not a good feeling to have ppl bad-mouth you, when you KNOW that you have not anything wrong! I cannot stand confrontation...and w/ words, it surely can bug me for a very long time!!! :( I can never let it go....it's ALWAYS personal to me. I'm not the "let them talk, in one ear out the other person"(wish I was though)!

    I hope that this break can get you focused on what is BEST in your life...Hubbi and Baby!!! Hoping these comments bring reassurance to you...you are NOT a bad, mean, or hateful person!!!

    But in this world, ppl can just be naturally mean!!! Gosh.

    Much love and well wishes sent!!! xx God bless...:)

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  49. Rise above all this crap, cause you were already up there to begin with and don't need to be pulled down. You are a lovely, kind, and honest person and those that matter in your life know that a thousand times over and thats really all that counts. Much love and support Katie. xxxxxxxxx

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  50. Hi Katie,
    I only discovered your blog page by chance tonight and I couldnt believe what I read as I am being hurt by someone telling lies about me, unfortunately its by someone closer to home!! I have read a little about you and I know you have the spirit to pick yourself up and ignore these bullies! They dont deserve your time thinking about them! Keep your chin up honey and bug the hell out of them by being strong and carry on!
    Hugs Roni :O) xoxo

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