I used to hate my naturally curly hair. Hate. Hate. Hate. I actually thought it was like some sort of curse. Older women used to tell me ALL the time that "people pay big money to have hair like yours". I rolled my eyes. [Which my mom said if I rolled my eyes they'd freeze that way. They didn't mom...for the record. :)]
Anyway--now I can't get my hair nearly as curly as before. It straightens all too well now. When I try to do the roll out of the shower, throw a little product in it and get beautiful curls look? Its a big fat failure. It's all kinky and weird, and non-curly like. I miss my old hair. So much. I cannot believe I just said that. But I totally do.
To give an idea.
Sometimes, when Eme sleeps a good, long stretch at night (8.5-11 hours), I miss her. Trust me, I love sleep, although it's a rarity (and I won't sleep good again until I'm dead....basically). BUT--I do. I find myself being all "oh I just wanna go snuggle her". Don't think I'm crazy. But yea. Sometimes I miss her during the night. So sue me.
Neither of us girls get out of our Pj's until after lunchtime, almost everyday. I never really bother to go anywhere until after her first nap anyway---and she's so much cozier napping in her pj's. I figure it's nice of me to do so. Errr. At least I like to think so.
I found myself for 5 seconds this week missing my teaching job just a tiny, little bit. But then? A few moments later Em woke up in a screaming fit of pain (I assume due to teething). I held her, I rocked her, I stroked her head, and she peacefully fell back asleep. Then I started to tear up. If I had to work (and likely have to go back next year)--who will do this for her?? How can I cope with knowing I might not be able to be the one to soothe and comfort her? And my heart breaks a tiny bit. Then I forget about missing my job even in the slightest bit because for me, this is somuchbetter. I'd be lying if I told you I wasn't already scared and worried about the thought of leaving her and that it's likely what I'll have to do next year. The topic gets me all choked up. So let's just move on for the sake of saving me some tears.
I realize when people are only reading text, they put their own spin on pronunciations, etc. But--just to clear this up.
My husbands name? Declan.
Sounded out like: "Deck-Lynn". That's how you say it.
It's not "Dee-Clan"...its not "Deek-Lin"---its Declan. Deck. Lynn.
Hope that helps.
I'm assuming you all also realize this---but while I'm devoting a whole post to it.
Like, "Emmie" or "Emmy", or "Emme".
However, with the spelling of her name, we decided just the first 3 letters of her name was fitting.
Hence, Eme. Short for Emeline.
[Emeline sounded out like "Emma-Line"]
So, yea. I love a little clarity in my life. Or yours. Whichever.