I don't know how to write this without sounding like
the wicked witch of the west a scrooge.
And, truly? I don't even like what I'm about to type.
I've had a really, really hard time getting in the Christmas spirit this year.
I know. It's crazy, right? Hard to believe considering it's the first Christmas I get to celebrate with a sweet baby girl by my side. I should be in a ridiculously amazing Christmas'ey spirits, all holiday-cheeriness abounds and sleighbells! and hot chocolate! and stocking stuffers! and memories! But. I'm not.
Something was holding me back. Nothing quite felt right this season. I was just off.
I could blame it on the fact my husband is working a gazillion hours and I feel like he's never home [not his fault, just 'tis the season]. I could blame it on the fact that I left about half my shopping to the last minute, thus making me all anxious and not able to enjoy the season fully. OR, I could just be honest.
I really don't know why I'm in a Christmas funk. I just know that I don't like it and want out of it.
At our Church yesterday morning they started passing around a paper with the lyrics to "O come all ye faithful" & "Hark the Herald Angels Sing". I leaned down and whispered to my sister, "Oh, good! Maybe singing Christmas songs will get me in the spirit."
Oddly enough...it kind of did, actually.
Or who knows--maybe it was an epiphany I had while singing. But whatever it was, I'm bound to drop this bad attitude and make it better.
I have to. For me, for her...for us. Really. Heck, for others too. I need to be doing more for other people this holiday season too. It's so easy to be so me, me, me (inward) focused. But dudes...there are people without food. There are beautiful, little, deserving children without a single gift. My heart breaks for those situations.
I'm gonna blast the holiday music.
I'm gonna finally address those cards.
I'm gonna make a list of the final odds-n-ends I need to do/buy.
I'm gonna finish my homemade gifts.
I'm gonna wrap.
And I'm gonna do something for someone else.
This will surely get me in the spirit.
If you need a dose of "O come all ye faithful" to kick you in the butt too---here ya go. You can thank me later.