You read about people, daily, who put their lives out there for whoever is reading. Sometimes, those people reading never show their 'face' (ie: never comment, email, etc). They lurk.
They know a ton about your life. You don't know most of them, at all.
You write.You share.
You continue to share things that you want. Its Your Blog, anyway, right?
I never realized that what I wrote would be of any interest to people. Or that some of you would stop by daily. Or that you'd care about the silly antics that is my life. Or hear about my miscarriage. Or watch my pregnant belly grow. Or watch me become a mom. Or that you'd like seeing the photographs I take of my daughter. (Okay, hold up. Who wouldn't want to see adorable pics? I digress.) Or watch her grow up. Or..or...you get it.
Blogging is a weird thing on one hand, and a really, really great thing on another. I obviously love it.
You know a lot about me. Well, you know a lot about what I choose to write about, that is. Of course I don't write about everything, and out of respect I choose not to write about certain things regarding my family, my marriage, or other things we choose to keep personal.
You feel like you know me. Some of you? I feel like I know, too. But, most of you? I don't really know.
When I write about something & hit publish it means I'm ready, willing and fully comfortable sharing with the proverbial 'world'. When I don't write about something for a while, or don't update on a particular thing? The usual reason is not because I forgot. It's because I'm not ready to talk about it. Heck, maybe I never will write about it. And that? Is okay.
You see, that's the thing. It's my right what I put out here. Just like its your right to do the same in your little space on the internet. I'm really open, true. But some things are touchy subjects even for me.
I think that sometimes, in the whole Art of Blogging, we forget about relationship. Relationship is between two people, a friendship, a bond, you've both invested & shared into each others lives in some way.
And with relationship? Comes privilege to know certain things about the other...desires, hopes, fears, dreams, etc.
Sometimes, just sometimes I feel like blogging takes that relationship aspect out of things. It can also be very one-sided.
Just remember, although I'm a person who writes almost daily 'online', I'm still a human. With feelings, emotions & every day real life mom-struggles.
And sometimes? Sometimes? I just don't wanna talk about it.