I think at some point in time or another, we all could use a little boost...a little praise...or a little job well done, and you can do it. I think that as humans, we kind of tick that way. It's this internal need to know we are valued, loved, and to need that boost of reassurance sometimes.
I was beginning to lose myself in all this miserable-babydom over here. It was seriously wearing at me. I was behind in all housework, regular work, I hadn't had interaction with friends in a week, and overall, just felt worn out and weak. Literally, the almost non-stop-crying was tearing me down. There is something that just makes you feel so failure-like when you cannot soothe your own child.
My husband happily sent me on my way last night to go shopping with my sister while he stayed home with Emeline, bathed & put her to bed. It didn't come out of left field, I mean...I called him earlier in the day and it kind of went like this: OhmygawdifIdon'tgetoutwithoutthebabymysanitywillbeatstake.Ihave'ntsleptindaysandI'mgonnadie.IneedtobeME.Notmom,justKatie.I'mgoingouttonightandyoucan'tstopme.
Well, I didn't say the last part. But, yea. You get the gist. I was thisclose to losing it.
You know what he said so sweetly on the phone? (Which set my crazy-talk-gonna-lose-it into a mushy oblivion?)
"You deserve it, and I value what you do."
That was it.
When we crawled into bed last night after I had a few blissful hours just hopping from store to store with my sister, not having to strap a kid in & out her carseat at every stop, not having to worry about leaving the cart 10 feet behind me, or feeding snacks & playing a peek-a-boo with a toddler---I thanked him. Just a simple thank-you to say that getting the time out, even though it meant not really seeing him that night, meant a lot to me.
He began to encourage me. He told me what a great mom he thinks I am, and how well I do when handling her, especially while she's feeling so sick.
It meant a lot.
It got me to thinking---
A little bit of encouragement can go a long, long way. Let's take my weight loss for example--the encouragement you all have given me along the way has helped in so many ways. I try to do the same for others.
But I need to be better and more intentional about encouraging others. The intentionality factor is the one I want to work on. Being purposeful about encouraging those around me. Whether it be face to face, in an email, on a blog post, through twitter, or on the phone.
Because I don't necessarily think it's always about the way the encouragement/uplifting words come, but that you know there is someone in your life rooting you on. We all need that to some degree.
So that...that's where I'm at today.
Does any of this ring true or hit close to home to anyone else?