...then I'll have one heck of a birthday.
Yea, it's my birthday. Another year older....wiser, right? Meh, whatever. I'll be off spending the day with my little family and honestly? That's all I want. Okay, that and maybe a shopping spree. But whatever.
Yesterday was awesome though. Actually, I take that back. It wasn't all awesome. I started off in a bit of a funk and so I knew me and Emeline would have to run off and take a little trip. To do something. Somewhere. I would bring my camera. I would bring the iPad (of course, so if there was any down time, I could read...ahem). I would feel the sun on my cheeks. It would help renew this weird funk I felt coming on.
So we did. We packed up quickly. I stuck a snack and a water cup in my purse, wrapped her little fleece jacket around my camera to protect it (ha), and slid that, along with my iPad into another purse, grabbed a blanket, and off we went. To the pond at the park, to be exact. Determined to turn this day around.
It's tranquil there. So peaceful. So sunny. And just...nice. At the top of the hill are a bunch of rocks. Her and her cousins enjoy throwing rocks into the pond, you know, for fun. So we brought a bag along and loaded it up with rocks first. Then, as we were about to walk down the big hill to the pond, Eme reached up and said, "Mommy, hand?" She needs me, my girl. So we walked hand in hand down the steep hill until we found a nice sunny spot close to the pond edge.
We watched as a sweet little duck came grazing along the pond. Honestly, he came to see us--I know it. I think that made her day.
We threw rocks in the pond (but never near the duck, mind-you). She picked me dandelions ("fowers"), and she saw those itty, bitty butterflies that come out this time of year dancing all around her. And I watched as her eyes lit up and she yelped, "BUTT-FLIES!!" and then did a dance, clasping her hands together over and over yelling, "I CATCH 'EM!"
It was joy in her face. She didn't stand a chance to catch those butterflies, but she sure as heck tried.
I know that typically you hear how exhausting children are. And you know what? Sometimes that is beyond true. But other times? They invigorate you. They breathe life to your bones. They bring you up. They're able to bring you out of a weird hazy funk. They make you laugh. They sit in your lap for a cuddle at the exact time that not only they need it, but you do, too.
Doing this mom thing can be fun. Sharing little adventures with her. Watching her discover new things like the butt-flies, the grasshopper, and the flopping fish in the middle of the pond. Her excitement over taking a picture with momma. Those things.
...and next year? At my birthday? There will be two little girls I get to love on.
Happy birthday to me. How blessed I am.