I guess I should do this. Yes. I will want this for the future.
We had an unexpected chance to see her last week on ultrasound and she is looking mighty cute, you guys. They checked on all her organs, she was practicing breathing, they even showed me her little whispy hair! She had her cute little hands over her eyes like a boxer, but really? I know she is just prepping to fight off her probably over-interested big sister :) That, OR my camera. Not sure. She "measured" according to the ultrasound last week about 6 1/2lbs---but I know those things can be majorly off. We shall see!
Other than being tired of being pregnant & having all the normal aches and pains of a pregnant lady who is under 2 weeks away from her due date? I guess pretty decent. Emotionally, I'm ok. I had one tiny little pillow cry the other day about the unknowns of when she'll come, especially because so many of my family members are going out of town in the next few weeks. But it'll be okay. I just keep trying to remind myself that God's got this. He is into details. He cares about those things. I just need to chill out and let go.
A few days a week I've been napping, too. If I go out in the morning with Eme? It's enough to exhaust me to the point of feeling like I have NO choice but to nap. And I am NOT a usual napper. Pregnancy makes me a napper (in the 1st and very end of 3rd trimester), which is weird. But there's something so good about a pregnant nap.
Blah. Blah. and Blah.
I'm officially over it. I'd like my skinny arms back, please. And smaller thighs. And I'd like pregnancy fat face to be gone now. My weight gain with Eme was 31 pounds, and with this kiddo I'm hovering around 34 pounds right now. Yeesh. Let's all just say a prayer right now that it falls right off, mmmk?
I realize this is the worst comparison picture in the history of comparison pictures but it's all I could find for now without dragging out my big camera to take another. But, even with the photo size difference, I still think my bump appears smaller with this baby. Also, I was "lower" at this point at 38 weeks with Eme than with this baby. Although I hear that's kind of typical for 2nd time moms to not "drop" like they do with their first until labor time. Who knows though.
The Big Sis
I think the poor kid is convinced baby sister will live inside my stomach FOREVER. I feel kind of bad for telling her that she'll be here soon--because now she takes my tummy in her hands and talks to her, saying "come out!", and then she demands me to go "bounce on 'da ball, mommy". For real. She just wants to meet her. I don't blame her, I feel the same.
Whenever I'm getting her dressed or ready, or anything like that--if she's at eye-length with the bump, she hugs it. She'll rest her head on it, and she'll proclaim "I lub' you baby ___". My heart literally burst out of my chest when I heard it the first time.
Everything that is for the baby? She runs around holding and saying, "Ohhh goodness! SO CUTE!! the baby!" She's basically obsessed and the sweet girl isn't even on the outside yet. Let's hope the transition goes smooth and we've prepared her as well as we possibly can.
I've found myself having so many sweet moments with her lately. She's not typically a cuddler/stay-still-for-long kid, but lately? She has been way into cuddling with me, and she'll lay for long periods of time and be still, and let me just stroke her arm, or rub her head. Today, she woke up from her nap and I went in to get her, but she wanted me to lay down. We both fell asleep for another hour. Lucky for me my husband got this gem (aka: awkward, fat, pregnant angle) on his phone of us. It's dark. And blurry. But it's kind of a sweet moment that I love.
I think she can sense the change. But we're excited for it.
Tomorrow (Tuesday) we have a doctors appointment and we'll see how everything's going.