I have lists and lists of things I want to write about regarding sweet baby Lucy and my big girl, too. As the ideas flood my brain I furiously write them in my iPhone notes so I won't forget.
But then more moments happen, and I'm all I need to write about that, too. And now the moments are stacking up so high I just don't even know where to begin. Some are fine being just for me, for us---but sometimes I need to write stuff down so I don't forget it. So I remember. So I can look back on those moments and remember my emotions and feelings. That's why I write about them. These moments.
Emeline meeting Lucy was insanely special to me. This little person we had talked about for months and months, finally on the outside, tangible to a 2 year old now, this little baby--here in the flesh, so she could finally lay eyes on her and kissy her and huggie her. It was and still is one of those moments I will remember forever. It makes me tear up just thinking about it.
I am so grateful that my husband got a little video of the first few times my girls were together. I think they will cherish this so much in the future.
And really? I think this speaks volumes. More than my words really can right now. All I know is--I'm in love with both of my girls so hard I didn't even know it was possible. My heart just expanded, and I love these little people with my whole heart, both of them.
I thank God for my sweet gifts. I really, truly do--because I don't deserve them, but I'm so grateful he saw me fit to be their momma.
Emeline meeting baby Lucy:
(you'll notice in the first video Emeline's eye was watering and hurting her--she had scratched herself with a stick at my parents the day before, and rubbed it so hard I think she ended up scratching her eye and making it worse--hence the watery, painful looking eye. The next day she was better :) )
And yes, I cry every time I watch this. My postpartum hormones are off the charts. :)