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Thursday, August 2, 2012

Lucy's Birth Story, Part 3 of 3. The Finale!

(Read Part 1 & Part 2 first...)

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Finally. Finally. That sweet man of an an anesthesiologist walked in the door. It felt like an eternity. ETERNITY. But it was finally happening, I would get some relief--finally, after days of painful episodes and hours of intensity. I was so tired. So, so tired.

By this point, it was probably about 7:45pm. The process of getting the epidural was awful only because of how much pain I was in by this point. I was literally hugging my poor pregnant nurse, hanging over the side of the bed, sobbing big tears on her baby bump. I'm not kidding. Just picture THAT for two seconds. Go ahead, laugh.

My doctor was in the room, and I just kept saying how much pain was in my butt--and that I couldn't sit up anymore, the pain was just too unbearable. My cries were shaking my back and I remember the anesthesiologist saying that I needed to try to remain calm because my small shaking felt like huge mountains to him. I tried, so hard, to stay still. It was torture.

My doctor told the anesthesiologist that she wouldn't be surprised if I was fully dilated and to give me the full dose in case I went directly to pushing, to make sure it would take at least some affect in time. I remember thinking, Ohmygosh, ALREADY--but also, THANK YOU GOD--I want this over.

Declan came back in the room (my hospital makes them wait outside), and I hung onto him for a few more contractions until suddenly--within about 10 minutes I was finally feeling some relief. And just.like.that my entire demeanor changed.

It was like a calmness overcame my body. I was so grateful, no matter how long I would/would not get to enjoy the relief, that I got SOME relief at all. I've already had people ask me if I wished I didn't even bother getting an epidural because I was so close--but the truth is, I do not regret it--not a tiny bit. It made the rest of welcoming our baby girl into the world SO beautiful, calm and peaceful--so for that alone, I'm glad.

But back to the story.

At this point, my doctor checked me. I wasn't a 10 like she'd guessed, but I was 7+ and she was all HOLY COW THAT KID IS LOW & no wonder you felt so much pain.

This is when she broke my water.

During the next half hour (or less) is when Declan and I just really got to enjoy it. I gave him my camera, he started documenting stuff around the room, we were laughing and joking, and I was taking silly pictures. Silly pictures? WOULD HAVE NEVER HAPPENED TWENY MINUTES PRIOR. I would have killed someone. But once I got some sweet relief, bring on the pictures.

This time was really special for me. I know it sounds all cliche, but really--it was just quiet, and silly and sweet--and so, so special being just Declan and I.

I felt like I could finally focus on the fact that so soon our 2nd baby girl would be in our arms.

At 8:30 my doctor and nurse came back around and that's when she checked me and said, Alright, looks like it's time to have this baby. My body speeds through the last part of dilation, that's why I knew that getting there at 5cm didn't necessarily mean we'd have a long time. In fact, we'd only been in the hospital since 6:15pm, it's 8:30pm and about time to push?

Whoa. That was fast.

But I was ready now. I was able to be at peace, relax, and really focus on bringing my girl on the outside.

The doctor was kind of casually getting ready (seriously, she is so relaxed & at ease--I love it), and the nurse was prepping the baby station. Within a few minutes they had my legs up on the stirrups, quickly reminded me of the way we push, and alright let's do this.

At 8:40pm I pulled back on my own legs, leaned in, and pushed with my first contraction. Honestly? Feeling almost nothing at all---and it was heaven. The doctor said my pushes were perfection and since I've done it before that probably lended to it. My husband was by my head, counting--and while I was pushing, I was focused.

In between contractions? We chatted, laughed, I leaned down and could see my progress (sorry if that weirds you out, I thought it was kind of cool how aware I was this time compared to last time :) ), and I seriously just took in every part of it.

There were no other words to describe her entrance into the world other than peaceful. It was SO peaceful.

On my 4th push, they told me to lean down and grab my baby girl--something I'd wanted to do so badly. I leaned down and put my hands under her little arm pits and pulled my crying, healthy, slimy and sweet baby out and up on my chest.

At 8:55pm, she was here. 

We smiled. We ooh'ed and ahh'ed at her.

We did it. 

Welcome Lucy Elizabeth.


You gave me a run for my money sweet girl--but you were so worth it.

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74 comments:

  1. And cue tears! Good work, mama! So glad you're here, Lucy!

    And, holy mackerel, you just reminded me of the rectal pain. With E, my butt hurt for weeks, so when my water broke, everyone was like, "HOLY CRAP! THIS BABY IS LOW! I think she's been like this for a while!" (Stupid me had refused the cervical check, otherwise I might have known.)

    Meanwhile, I thought my butt was going to explode (I was about 7 cm when this discussion went down and really not in the mood to humor them, either:). I think I even said, "My a** is going to blow off!" to the midwife. So I remember that now, thanks;)

    Anyway, this labor reminded me a lot of Ella's. But I didn't have just 4 pushes. GO YOU! That's so freaking awesome! I hope you feel like super woman after that because you should:)

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  2. Just WOW! What a great story! I had tears welling up... You truly have such a way of capturing emotion and moments and putting it into words. Congratulations on your precious little addition!!! Hugs!

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  3. Amazing birth story, so happy for your family!
    Xo

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  4. I love birth stories. Thanks for sharing. Beautiful.

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  5. I love, love, love birth stories & I am totally crying right now and can't wait to meet little one (in 2 weeks or less!)

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  6. Aw! You made me tear up!! I can't wait to have one of my own! Congrats, congrats! Your pics on Instagram are KILLING ME, btw. :)

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  7. REALLY?? You look that fab after just delivering? Model much?? :-)
    More serious, what a beautiful birth story! So happy for you and your new little love!!

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  8. Wow what a beautiful and well written birth story. So happy you got some peace at the end.

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  9. Thanks for making me cry right before bed! I remember that rectal pain and was sitting here in pain for you! I am just so, so happy for y'all. And how do you look so fabulous after just giving birth?!

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  10. Such a great story!! I could barely read through the tears! Love that you got to pull Lucy girl out yourself! That's awesome, and if I ever have another one, one day, I WILL do that for sure! I'm so glad that everything went good for you and that Lucy is happy and healthy in her "outside the belly" home!

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  11. So beautiful, Momma! I am so glad she's here so we can all love on her across the big ol' interwebs. Love you SO MUCH!

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  12. Congrats on such a sweet new addition. Em will be a sweet proud big sister. Katie its been a real joy to watch and follow your journey through all of this. So glad you are over the L&D and can now enjoy motherhood with your two little ones. = )

    Irish

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  13. Ah! Such a beautiful story! The female body amazes me more and more with every birth story I read. You were superwoman!! Congrats again on your newest addition. Lucy is just gorgeous!

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  14. LOVE LOVE LOVE birth stories. They just make me so happy. So I can only imagine how happy the mommas behind the stories are. She's beautiful and I LOVE her name. You're right. It's the perfect little sister name.

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  15. Yay! What an awesome story! And yeah, you were totally superwoman. So happy for you guys!

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  16. This was a great birth story. I love the details and story telling. Glad you got your epidural in time and you were able to enjoy it. She is beautiful, congrats

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  17. Wow! What an amazing story with a most amazingly happy ending. Great job Mama and again a very happy welcome to Lucy. :)

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  18. *sob* that was so beautiful. The image of you lifting your own baby up to your chest, so awesome. this was the first birth i was in the position to do that and i will never forget my baby right in front of me in the water with his arms outstretched like he couldn't wait to have a cuddle with me. Lovely end to your birth story Katie- well done!

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  19. I'm sitting at work right now, taking my break from doing all of this baby/postpartum stuff, and I'm crying my eyes out. I just sped through these 3 posts so quickly that my eyes hurt, but I couldn't get enough. This is hands down the sweetest thing I've ever read, Katie! I am just so overjoyed for you, Declan, and Eme!!! I cannot wait to have this one day...I can't wait to feel all of these things. This just makes my heart so happy to see you so happy...love love love :)

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  20. Loved the birth story.... all of it. Beautiful!

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  21. Congratulations mama!! You look fabulous!! Welcome to the world sweet Lucy!

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  22. 4 pushes!!! That's amazing! This story was totally worth the 3 parts =)

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  23. Ok, this whole similarity to G's birth story is so weird. And as much as I wanted to try to go without an epidural, I was happy, afterwards, that I got one. Because giggling between pushes and letting your babe come out peacefully is pretty darn awesome. If I ever had another baby, which I won't, I'd get the epi in a heartbeat. So glad you had such a great experience. Thanks for sharing the details. :) XOXO

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  24. Awesome birth story. That sucks that you were sent home twice though. I was SOOO disappointed when we were sent home when it thought it was "it". You're story is beautiful and I'm so happy for you and your little family!!!

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  25. I love reading these stories. Thank you for sharing :)

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  26. Beautiful story, Katie! Also love your disclaimer on today's post that the "trauma" leads to the precious baby ;) Great reminder because I was totally thinking "OMG I can't do that!!!"

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  27. beautiful birth for a beautiful family!

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  28. I'm bawling! Seriously, such an amazing story! & she's so beautiful, well done! Xxx

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  29. Thank you so much for sharing Lucy's birth story. As a first time pregnant momma-to-be I find it so helpful to read other momma's experiences. Congrats on precious baby Lucy.

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  30. Such a beautiful ending to your story! :)

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  31. So glad you got to enjoy the final (and best) part! Congratulations!

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  32. Blogs are so amazing!!!!! I am so grateful I found yours (I honestly can't even remember how)....I don't know you personally but your stories, pictures and life are such a blessing and an inspiration for so many! This birth story was amazing and i would have been disappointed if it were shorter so don't ever apologize for that! I am a detail person as well, it's part of your/her story you will never want to forget, so GREAT job!!! Thank so much for letting your true colors shine through in this blog world. It feels strange to me how much blogs draw me in, but- again, I don't even know you and I was anxiously awaiting the news of your newest lady love! :) You're making me so anxious and excited to expand our family of three - someday...... I hope you're resting as easy as you can and I'm sure you're loving every minute of it. Even after 14 mo. I still have massive tailbone issues - and I didnt' even get to deliver vaginally- so I pray you will recover and heal easily in that area. Thanks for sharing your life! I'm sure your home is just bursting with love every minute!!!

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  33. And the most important part I forgot...... (shame) ...... SUPER CONGRATULATIONS!!!! She is absolutely gorgeous!

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  34. Good job! This was beautifully written, and real. I love that you and you Hubby were joking around just prior, makes it special and happy.

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  35. Yay! Awesome birth story, and what a CUTIE you got at the end of it!

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  36. So I started reading part one yesterday and got distracted, after I read it this morning I am glad I got distracted... I would have been checking my reader every five minutes for the end! I also went into L&D and was sent home! It happens, nothing to be embarrassed by! ;) Thanks for sharing! I love birth stories, and Lucy's was great! Prayers for more peaceful nights in your house! Congrats!!

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  37. Oh my goodness! You basically delivered your own baby?! What an amazing story! So happy for you and glad you had some relief at the end.

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  38. Your words are beautiful and thank you so much for sharing such a wonderful moment with all of us. There is nothing more special than that moment when a baby enters this world.. I'm still on the fence whether I want to have another baby.. and hearing your story certainly makes me yearn for #2

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  39. Thanks for sharing. I'm so excited for you! Being a Mom of 2 is hard but so so great! Such a blessing! Unfortunately now I want another squishy newborn! :)

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  40. I read the second and third parts last night from my phone but came back today to comment :) Thank you so much for sharing your story! I love reading birth stories and yours definitely made me cry! Congratulations again!

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  41. *sigh*

    I love birth stories. Love them. And when they're the stories of my close friends? They make me smile and tear up.

    I am so very happy for you guys.

    Ps. My ovaries constricted for just a moment. There's nothing quite like the excitement of having a baby, and for just a second I missed it. (And then Maddie hit Liv in the head with some blocks and the moment passed)

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  42. Loved your birth story! I hate that you had so much "is this it or not" going on and I hate that Susan wasn't in town when sweet Lucy was born.

    BUT - Lucy's entry into this world seems so peaceful and perfect! The Lord made sure of that!

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  43. My most favorite part? Where you reach down and bring your beautiful girl Earthside...straight in your arms to your chest. My heart just melted and chills were all over. I love reading birth stories and yours was so beautiful, Momma. :')

    This is a huge reason why I will strive for my VBA2C. The precious memories and amazing moments are pure blessings from above. :)

    Enjoy your girls, Momma. Much love to you always. <3 xx

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  44. You are a warrior! I am so impressed that with 2 babes, you've already documented Lucy's birth story and posted regularly. I am inspired to pick back up myself, what's my excuse?

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  45. Congratulations on an awesome experience. She is beautiful in her own right. What a blessing she will be to your family. I bet you are over the roof excited for Susan to meet her! (or maybe she has already at this point!)

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  46. I just found your blog last week, before you had Lucy. I am due on the 24th and I just loved reading what you thought about while pregnant. I have a 2 year old daughter too, and I was able to relate to you so much! I love your blog, and I really look forward to following along your family adventure. Your birth story is great, I admire you for writing it all out so soon! Congratulations on your new little girl, she is beautiful!

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  47. Oh this made me cry such big tears!! I am due with my second little one in just a few short weeks and I cannot wait to have these moments again myself (well, except for the unbearable pain part). Congratulations on your beautiful little girl. So happy she is here and doing well!!

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  48. S0, so sweet! And congratulations on your sweet little girl!

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  49. I have loved reading your birth story so much and I'm sure it should scare me for the future but it doesn't. You made me excited!
    Lucy is beautiful and what an amazing delivery!

    Thank you for sharing it with such honesty!

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  50. Just finished all 3 parts. BEAUTIFUL STORY! SO glad you got it all written down. Our memory fades so quickly. I can't believe you pulled her out yourself. Thats amazing girl! Congrats! I hope y'all have a more restful weekend!!!!

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  51. Beautiful!! All the pictures capture everything perfectly- I am so glad you got to enjoy the last part of the delivery. And her name is perfect, love it! Congrats! :)

    I am so excited to see the bloggers I follow having their babies, I know I am close, and I am sooooo ready!

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  52. Congratulations! I'm sorry that it was so rough for most of it, but glad that you had a happy ending- i.e. drugs :) 2 months to go for me- I'm so much more relaxed with it being the second time...I say that now... :)

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  53. What an amazing birth story! I am all choked up over here. Many congratulations to you and your family. Also, I love her name!

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  54. ahh the relief of an epidural! so happy it allowed you to have some special, fun last moments with declan and a peaceful, precious entry for lucy! enjoy that beautiful little miracle!

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  55. Beautifully written Katie. This just reminds me how beautiful a birth story can be (horrendous pain aside). As funny as this may sound, I hope when I have baby #2, I get to go into labor. Baby #1 was a scheduled c-section due to complications so I never got to experience any of the things you mentioned. Thank you for sharing this very private part of your life.

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  56. I have been creeping your blog a little lately (I know... I should have introduced myself earlier), but I love hearing about your family! Your writing is so fluent and hilarious! Birth stories amaze me and I can't wait to explain my own someday. I hope I can tell the story half as good as you did. Congratulations!! Lucy is gorgeous!!

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  57. I really loved reading Lucy's birth story. Thank you for sharing with us. My husband and I are expecting our first little boy at the beginning of November and it can't get here fast enough!

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  58. What a beautiful ending to a beautiful birth! I used a mirror for both my births and you are the first person I've heard of that looked, too! Even though a mirror might be a little more weird, I guess! Ha!

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  59. OK, I can finally comment as I want to. Reading Lucy's birth story doesn't scare me, at all, in fact it makes me even more excited to welcome baby dew #2 one day. When you describe how different {calm} this birth was it clicked with me. I want that. I am so incredibly happy for you guys. Your happiness radiates through the internet and into each and every one of our homes. Thank you for sharing your story, even in 3 parts!

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  60. Sweetest story ever!! Loved reading it!

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  61. Girl you are a rock star for posting all of this so soon after giving birth! You brought back the memory of the rectal pain. I had forgotten about that lovely tidbit. I remember screaming "DOES SOMEONE HAVE THEIR FINGER IN MY BUTTHOLE!!???!!!". No, it was just my 8lb 14oz princess.
    Congrats again. Lucy is so unbelievably beautiful. I think she's definitely looking like her mamma!

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  62. Such a sweet story! I love reading birth stories. My husband and I are going to start trying for our first soon and it makes me so excited. I appreciate you being so open and honest through out your birth story,too- it in a way prepared me for what is to come. Congratulations on your sweet Lucy. She is gorgeous :)

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  63. Thanks for sharing your story! You were awesome and she is exquisite! I had a long crazy early- to mid-labor story with my son and got sent home from the hospital, too. I am excited but nervous to attempt a VBAC in about 8 weeks! I am especially nervous about the whole pushing part bc I never really got to experience that with my son due to complications.

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  64. I love the birth story! I'm glad you finally found relief and was able to experience it in peace!
    You have a beautiful family :)

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  65. Love birth stories! Isn't it amazing how bad it hurts but how quickly you forget?! I'm sure God did that on purpose but praise Him for epidurals! Lucy is precious! And I'm also super impressed you've been keeping up on the blog! :)

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  66. I am pregnant with #2 and still love reading birth stories. Can't wait to meet my second little love, we'll find out Wednesday if my son is getting a brother or sister. Thanks for sharing your story!!

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  67. Ahh, just got around to reading this and I loved it! She totally gave you the run around... maybe a glimpse into her future?! haha :) So glad she's here, she's just gorgeous! Congrats again.

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  68. Hi Katie,

    I really loved hearing all about little Lucy coming into this world. It makes me so excited to meet my first little one this coming March. Thanks for putting it all out there! Can't wait to here all about the days ahead.

    Love,

    Jane

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  69. Congratulations on your sweet little Lucy! First time reader and it could not have come at a more perfect time as I am waiting right now (39 weeks) to give birth to our first child, Lucy! I am loving your blog and our full birth story. I'm eating up all the info that I can get right now! Best wishes and blessings to you and your family!

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  70. I just finished reading all 3 parts to this, and you, my friend, are a champion! I loved reading every detail here. Being under three months away from meeting my first born, has me feeling a bit anxious, so I love reading these stories. Thank you for putting it all out there!

    Also, Lucy is gorgeous and I love all the photos you all captured! So nice to have those for memories!

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  71. Just found your blog, love it and love your birth story! I'm SUCH a sucker for birth stories. And mine was a 3-parter as well, I had to word vomit it all out so I wouldn't forget anything! :)

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  72. That was the most beautifully written birth story. Congrats on the new sweet baby.

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  73. I know you wrote this weeks ago, but I just wanted to say how much I enjoyed reading it. I love how you know yourself well enough to know what you needed to have the birth experience you wanted. Congrats to you and your beautiful family!

    (Also, so impressed at how quickly you wrote this after giving birth. It took me two months to write mine!)

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