I have to be honest---I am so overwhelmed today. I would love to ooze and write a thankful-grateful heart post...but I'm struggling. It's not that I'm not thankful, and grateful--I am. But my head is tired and just...like I said, generally I'm feeling overwhelmed today.
I can't even tell you how much I've had to rely on my family for last minute help with my kids the last few days. Part of it makes me feel so terribly guilty. Like, why I'm not yet super-mom status, feeling confident enough to drag two kids to the doctor at the same time. Part of me feels guilty---why should I get to run in a 5K with my husband. I should have just let him run the race and I stay back with the kids this time, rather than get help to watch them.
Every time I need to go into work to do something...again, it requires help with the kids. I just feel so bad, like I don't want to burn out people I love. But. Ugh.
Anyway. It's stupid. But yea. These are the things overwhelming me today.
I had to schedule a last minute doctors appointment for Emeline. I didn't think they'd get her in until maybe Friday--but upon explaining some things to them, they want to see her like, now. Until I know further details about what's going on, I don't really want to write about it. As far as I know it's not serious--but just keep us in your prayers.
I'm just feeling stupidly anxious about it. We're heading there soon.
My back is in killer-pain. And yet, I still want to run this 5K tomorrow morning even though I'll probably be hobbling like a 90 year old woman by the end.
The back pain though? It's really, really starting to bother me and make me unhappy.
I'm fully aware that the things I feel anxious about today are minimal. But for some reason, today, they don't feel that way.
For now, I'll look at these photos of my girls that make me laugh and smile...and remind me that IT'S OKAY. It is all okay. More than okay.
And tomorrow, I will stuff my face with turkey.
I hope you have a Happy Thanksgiving!
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