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Friday, December 7, 2012

Time to be quiet.

I had a whole post that I hashed out & flew off my fingertips earlier this week. It was one of those where I knew I needed to leave it in my drafts to simmer. For me to go back to and tweak and then read to my sister and husband and see their thoughts. To process it more because I just wasn't sure. Wasn't sure if I was making the right decision. Not sure if I worded things right. Not sure if it was something I'd be proud of or regret later.

For now, it still sits, and that's okay. The basic gist is that I've been feeling really, really contemplative of this blog, of writing here, especially the last few weeks. I'm having an internal debate about it, and I'm still not at any clear resolution.

In my marriage, when Declan and I can't make a unanimous decision about something--we sit on it for a while, and let it simmer some more. Pray about it. If it's something that's not pressing and we just can't agree? We do nothing. We're all about equality. No strong-arming here. It works for us.

So for now, I'm gonna do just that--I'm doing nothing.

I really want to take the next few weeks to be fully present with my family, and to focus myself more on "advent", the arrival of Jesus and his birth--and all things that Christmas mean. Rather than fly right through this month without taking a hot-second to slow the heck down.

I have another great weight loss story I want to post next week, and maybe I'll pop in here and there--but mostly I'm just not going to let myself feel any pressure. At all.

Maybe in the new year I'll have some more clarity on the direction I'm being led.

until then...

leaving you with the photo that graced the front of our Christmas cards this year....





xo

37 comments:

  1. If you are still getting hateful comments, I am so sorry. Really, I'm sorry for whatever reason you are feeling angry. I swing like a pendulum about all of the social media. I have raging PMS today and hate it all (including tweeting something totally bitchy and inappropriate last night when getting on Twitter for the first time in weeks). I don't know either. Perhaps I need to follow your lead. XOXO

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  2. Not anger...contemplativeness ;) If that's a word? Thanks, friend.

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  3. I really feel like I understand where you're coming from. I've taken social media (minus instagram) off of my phone. I've been Facebook-ing lots less (like almost never) for a week and it feels amazing. While part of me feels lonely I feel more present in my life. I hope you find clarity in your time away. I'm there with you. I hope you, your girls, and your husband have a Merry Christmas!

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  4. Whoops... I was signed in under my other e-mail... It's "the girl who always reads but never comments" :)

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  5. I don't know if it helps but I LOVE to read your blog and I love to see new pictures of your adorable girls. I don't blog on the weekends. I also don't check emails and I rarely check facebook. The weekends are social media free because I choose to spend that time with my family instead. I need that 'un plug' every weekend. I hope that you find peace this holiday season and I hope you find the clarity you are looking for. Beautiful Christmas card photo!

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  6. Oh my gosh, so CUTE. How on Earth do you get your toddler to sit still let alone smile at the camera? Great job!

    Enjoy your break and the Christmas season.

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  7. I love reading your blog and following along on your journey, I completely understand sitting back and enjoying the what is in front of you. I recently started blogging but cannot KEEP up with it. I am fearful of putting my life "out there" so to speak. I LOVE those that do but due to lots of circumstances in my own life, feel like I would regret doing that to my family. I am not a huge Facebooker and do not Tweet but I am addicted to Instagram.

    Whatever your decision - I feel like you always weigh your options and follow your heart. I hope your family has a blessed and bright Christmas season!

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  8. I'd really miss your blog, especially since your's is one of the first blogs I ever read. But you gotta do what is best for you, and you will be lead in the right direction. You truly have a gift in writing (and those adorable photos of your girls are a bonus!) I think you are fabulous! xoxo

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  9. I hope you decide to stick around blog land and keep writing. It's funny because although I don't know you or your girls I genuinely feel like I do. (Sounds creepy, maybe that's why you are feeling this way?) anyways, even though I don't know you I still care about you and your family and look forward go reading whatever you have to write. Praying that you find clarity and peace in whatever decision you make.

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  10. Love your blog, but you need to do whats best for you and your family.

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  11. I contemplate having my blog at least once a week. I just celebrated my six year blogging anniversary and honestly can't believe I'm still going. As my boys grow and get older it gets harder to write about them. I do love it but sometimes I get down about it.

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  12. i hope you dont totally go away, i love reading your blog. but it is 100% understandable to need you time, family time, etc. take all the time you need. you shouldnt feel any pressure to need to blog, have to blog or whatnot. it is a space for you. dont worry about us ;)
    gorgeous photo of your beautiful girls! :)

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  13. Beautiful picture of the girls! I hope you enjoy your holiday season with them and take the time you need!

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  14. You will be missed if you decide to stop, but I totally understand. I don't have a public blog, but I have been contemplating getting rid of Facebook. I find myself stupidly looking at Facebook instead of listening to my toddler. :( Regardless, whatever you choose to do, I will miss your blog. But I understand your feelings and respect those to the fullest!

    Beautiful picture of the girls! Merry Christmas!

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  15. I will have to say, "NOOOOO don't go! You are one of the few I have followed from the beginning and have not stopped reading because your voice and message have stayed the same. Take care and have a joyous holiday season with your family! You deserve it.

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  17. If I don't "see" you (on the blog that is) before the holidays I hope you and your family have a wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year! Love the pic of your girls, thanks for sharing.

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  18. ADORABLE! Take time for you, then come back and say Hello :-)

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  19. I'm not going to lie, I would miss your blog a lot, but I totally understand it all. I always felt to much pressure to blog, so I quit. I like to write things down that Phoebe does so that I remember, but I don't want to try to be witty and funny and thoughtful for anyone else to read, because I'm just not overly witty mostly. lol.

    Enjoy your holiday. Merry Christmas!

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  20. I've been feeling similarly lately, and I think it's absolutely okay - and sometimes necessary - to take some time off and let thoughts simmer down and coagulate before sharing them with others. I'm hoping your time off will give you definite clarity on what to do with your blog!

    I absolutely love that picture of your girls. They're beautiful!

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  21. I have no idea what the blog post is about, but I definitely think there is something to be said for sitting and waiting on a post. I need to do it a lot more for mine and don't. Hope you get your clarity in good time. Until then, enjoy your family and the holiday season.

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  22. I hope you won't stay away long, Katie. Your blog is one of my favorites. . .I will miss "checking in" with you if you decide to go! Happy Holidays to you and your family. Your holiday card photo is awesome!

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  23. Why is Lucy so cute? I love your blog. One of two favorites I have. Enjoy the holiday time with your sweet girls!! Merry Christmas!

    -Lauren

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  24. I'm praying for you....and trying not to let my prayers be biased because I love your writing! At least once a week I tell my sister "did you see what Katie posted?"... We feel like you are writing exactly what we are going through and it's so wonderful to know someone else gets it.

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  25. Hoping for some clarity for you and a peaceful December!

    Also, this may sound totally crazy....byt this is the first photo I've seen of Eme where she totally has toddler teeth instead of baby teeth. Is that a thing? If not, I feel like it should be, ha!

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  26. You have to do what's best for your family! Recently, I've noticed a lot of bloggers whose blogs I read have decided to hang it up. I understand, yet I still miss them. If that happens, I'll miss reading yours too. I hope that doesn't sound too creepy. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

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  27. I have been letting myself have a break from blogging when I need to. To not feel like I have to post 5+ days a week and if I skip a day, WHO CARES? It's actually made blogging more important to me because I'm not filling it with crap posts, instead I'm making the posts I do write count! Good luck and I hope you don't close up shop any time soon ;-)

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  28. I agree with Shannon! I've been doing the same thing! I don't post every day anymore either. Just isn't possible for me right now. And that's ok! I feel like if I don't post, that's better then posting something not worth reading. And I hope you don't stop writing anytime soon! Just take some time for yourself! That's very important! And those girls, just adorable!

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  29. I love that you guys just let it be in the mean time. Thats how I like to do things as well sometimes time gives you a better picture. Also that pic is so sweet!

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  30. The picture of the girls is beautiful. I check in with your blog but don't always comment. Whatever this post is about, hope you find peace with whatever you decide :)

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  31. Totally understand. Take a break. Breathe a little. You'll be missed, but enjoy spending time with that sweet family of yours. :)

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  32. What's going on lady? My blog is severely lacking lately. And that's okay ... I am keeping up wih the important things that I will want to have to look back on in the years and whatever else may come out is just extra.

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  33. A break can do you good, especially at this time of the year. THE most important things are those two little dears in that photo.

    Happy Christmas season, enjoy it to the fullest, my friend.

    (p.s. taking my own advice)

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  34. Just now seeing this....I'm sorry you are struggling, but good for you for not making any rash decisions! I hope you thoroughly enjoy this special time with your family! I pray that it allows you time to savor the small things and gives you some peace with whatever is going on! Merry Christmas!!!

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  35. Oh!!! I forgot to add...the picture is absolutely adorable! Emeline's smile is so sweet and genuine! Now, if she could just teach my son how to do that!!! Ha!

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  36. Follow your heart and time will guide you in the right direction. Whatever that may be. And as long as you are taking care of you, that's all that matters. Sending positive thoughts your way. And those precious girls.

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  37. Hey girl. I am guessing I may know what your simmering post is about, but am glad you're taking the time you need to do what you need. I have fallen off and gotten back on the blogging bandwagon multiple times (ahem - as you know...haha)and I really don't miss it. When I do? I pop on and do a random post writing my heart out. I struggle knowing that there are so many posts still up on my blog full of my kids' pictures and our information, but it's hard. I miss the friends I've made, and remember back to a year (or more?) ago when I looked so forward to getting on Twitter in the evenings to catch up with you, Lindsay, Gina, Liz, etc. Those were good times. I've been even contemplating FB lately. I think I am more "addicted" than I'll admit. Hmmm...things to think about.

    Anyhow, happiest of happy advents to you and your sweet family.

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