I know, I'm heinously annoying. Especially if you're having a bad day. Trust me, I get it.
If you want me to be completely honest---I will. I'm usually the unhappy one. Ick. I hate admitting that out loud, I really do. It sucks when I know the purpose of my blog to glean out the happy things, which is maybe why I haven't written that much because I have felt, generally, kind of icky inside. No, not my physical being, that feels great. But my mental, emotional state. I guess you could say--it's not been awesome (sorry Declan). I'm not even fully sure why.
I've been snappy and mean and really freaking irritated with the attitude that comes with age 3. I've been short with my husband (A LOT), and I've been on edge and a little bit anxious, about random things or nothing at all. I used to be someone who could roll with the punches, prided myself on fun, last minute life-living, but that just hasn't been me lately. I think I got so far away from some of the way I used to love life, that I almost forgot it. I know, it sounds stupid and much too deep, and that's ok.
I don't feel bad about myself admitting this. Admitting that I've just not been nice, not had a good attitude about life in general, or that I've just felt kinda of--meh, for no apparent reason. Because I know it's probably actually less normal to feel SPUNKY!HAPPY!ALL!THE!TIME! That's just not been me. I guess there's just something to saying it out loud that is maybe helpful? I don't know. I would hate to perpetuate some life-is-perfect-all-the-time mentality when that's just not true.
The thing is. Today has been good for me, in the simplest ways, today has been fulfilling. And yet--it's not even been that abnormal from other days. How weird is that?
Maybe a switch went off. Maybe things just happened to line up in my favor today. Maybe God was smiling down on me. Or maybe I just trusted Him more today. I HAVE NO IDEA. But I really, really like today.
A few miles of trail-walking with my sister and my babies today instead of the gym? I loved it. I forget how much nature feeds my heart and mind and makes me feel whole. I know, I know, getting deep again. But it's TRUE. I feel like a different person when I'm out there, breathing in the air, and with some of my favorite company, ever.
And also, I'm giving myself a dang break. These are unedited (gasp) iPhone pictures, un-watermarked (if you steal my pictures I will HUNT YOU DOWN). I just don't care! wee! live life!
Sometimes? When my 3 year old isn't acting like a crazed preschooler, I'm reminded how AMAZING and SWEET she is. She is truly a gem. Such a lover.
After our walk, we took it easy. We watched the park rangers and tree-cutter-down-people (sorry charlie, no idea the real name) take some tree's down along the trail. My girls watched in amazement as it turned into mulch in that big machine.
We went along our day, and decided it'd be a great day to visit Daddy at work. We have this special spot, this park right near his office. We get chick-fil-a and we have a picnic in the gazebo, then the girls play. We catch up a little bit about our day. It's nice.
Chick-fil-a messed up on my salad order, and then gave me ANOTHER one (and let me keep both!!) I got free lunch for my hubby, that was rad.
I LOVE THEM TOGETHER and this alone makes my heart beam. Absolutely beam. (Picture heart emoticon here with the beamy-vibration things coming from it. You know the one.)
He was all, "I want Starbucks", and I was all, "I need to go to Target"--and I was all, LIGHTBULB, "Hey you should just stay half hour late tonight and come to Target with us"---and he did. In the middle of his workday. And we got coffee and what we needed quickly, and the girls were behaved, and before we knew it we were out the door with our goodies, a tired, but still sweet 15 month old, and a 3 year old noshing on a bag of popcorn (typical).
And you know what???
I came home--and IT WAS NAP TIME. Glorious NAP TIME! (picture the praise hands emoticon with the shiny rays in between it here. You know the one.)
I thought, ahhh crap. Someone is bound to fight nap today. But no. I refused to be negative.
Both of them went down. Quietly. Without a fight, at all. I smiled.
Then I dyed my hair. I DYED MY HAIR. Then I even had time for a shower and a blow-dry. To pick out our clothes for our family photoshoot this weeked. To get dressed. TO EAT A SNACK! To drink that coffee I got at Starbucks.
AND OH YEA!!!!!!
To see that my sister's BIG FREAKING NEWS (!!!!!!!!) IS FINALLY FACEBOOK/SOCIAL MEDIA OFFICIAL!!!!!
What else can I say about that?
Oh. If today couldn't get any better, I also have a girls night out with a friend. Where we will go to dinner. Without our kids. We will chat. We will dress pretty. We will eat our meal hot without entertaining anyone. It will be freaking glorious. Can I get a hallelujah, amen?
I LOVE TODAY. Praise hands, baby.