I don't tend to focus on organization or to-do lists.
That being said. The one thing I constantly beat myself up about is pictures. Photo-taking. Being the memory keeper.
It literally weighs on me like a brick on my chest. My kids don't have albums. They literally just have one book, of their "birth-day" and few days following. I feel guilty about this all the time and know I don't have the time or organization of my past photos to even properly put them into books now without spending days upon days of which I don't really have. I can't even tell you how many times I've started said books. Gotten a few pages in. Threw in the towel and decided it wasn't worth it. They can go back and read my blog. My photos are on facebook. Hopefully they won't hate me for not keeping their pics better organized.
Sometimes I miss the day of film. Where you get every single roll developed, and put them directly into an album. Not a fancy, printed book. An album. But at least they're guaranteed to be somewhere physical, versus off in space, on some external hard drive, or backed up to joe schmo's company, in which we hope will still one day be there when we need them. It's kind of exhausting to think about.
Oh, and then there's the whole, will their life just be documented in little 2x2 instagram photos-thing? And I beat myself up over not taking out my real camera for them more often. I was so good with Emeline. So good. Everyone told me it would get harder as you had more children. I scoffed. But it turned out to be true for me. Poor Lucy. I mean, there's no shortage of instagram photos.
Anyway. Even as I'm writing this my stomach is in a big knot because I know I need to Do Something about this. To have more physical proof, somehow, in an album, of my photos. Of their little lives. Somewhere, someplace, other than the big ole internetz. But, sheesh. It feels so overwhelming now.
Enough of the sob fest over Not Real Issues. Here are a few of our favorite moments from the weekend. Not on instagram.
I normally wouldn't do this, because the advice would overwhelm me---but I'm gonna ask anyway. What's your way of staying on top of your kid's photos? Do you print books? Do instagram books? What is your favorite company to use (please don't say shutterfly...their book format overwhelms me, unless I'm an idiot)?
I need to take baby steps to get better. I guess I'm just more worried about starting over from the past, versus just working with the present and on. Does that make sense?
Anyone else feel this Memory-Keeper pressure, too?