Friday, December 19, 2014

happy twinkly lights and all.

It's totally hard for me to believe that Christmas is less than a week away. I admit I've not been focusing on the season, hardly at all. I'm letting the busyness of everything going on shroud all the good and fun stuff about the holiday.

But I'm not being busy baking cookies, shopping for gifts, wrapping (haven't started), or doing fun stuff like that, though-I'm just totally and completely in a different mindset this year. It's all focused on the move, and details (oh the details!), and packing, and selling half our crap, and booking flights, and this rental car, and packing--yea, packing.  Every time I walk to the car, I'm freezing. I can't help but think, "so soon--so soon we won't need heavy winter coats". A perk that I can't deny will be, well, absolutely wonderful, and bound to save me about 5-10 minutes of 'getting out the door' time in the mornings.

I'm hopeful, anyway.

But I need to force myself to stay present, to stay here in my brain a little longer, for the kids. Christmas is supposed to fun and magical and I want it to be that for them. I really do.

So Christmas cookies and gingerbread houses and all that messy, fun stuff this weekend. Oh, and going to see that house with all the crazy twinkly lights set to Frozen music, whose electric bill must be more than my mortgage each month. We're doing it all, baby, with our cheesy faces on.

Since this is likely the last time I'll write before Christmas (it's oh so rare these days as you see)--I really do hope and pray this holiday season is filled with little nuggets of goodness amidst the chaos and craziness. Ones that you can hold onto and remember and look back and smile about.

My hope is to write a lot more when we move, to keep everyone up to date on our adventures and all. But, let's be honest--I don't want to make promises I can't keep. I have good intentions at least. Until then, you can find me on instagram, where you can catch a snippet here and there of our wildly awesome (ha) days.

Merry Christmas, friends.

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Adventure awaits

Over the last few months some big thoughts and decisions, processing and praying have been going on over here. Probably some of the biggest in our life. It's been hard not to talk about it, not to write about it, not to be able to process it with many people. It's actually a decision my little family has been bouncing around in our heads for two years now.

Two years in the making. Waiting. Praying. Thinking it was probably just a far shot, and it's just too hard to reach. Too scary, actually, for so many reasons.

But a few months ago we decided to just step one foot in front of the other, promising ourselves that if God continued to open each door, we'd walk through it. If it was made obvious to us to stop, we'd stop. Step after step, though, the doors continued to open. We walked forward and had an eerie peace about it. It felt like God was laying this out, like it was the right and next step for our little fam.

It's finally to a sure enough place where I can share that we are moving from coast to coast. Yep--we are going to San Diego.

I am a mix of super, crazy excited for new beginnings, terrified of the unknown, completely overwhelmed with details, and beyond thrilled for some sunshine and a different lifestyle. And how the heck am I supposed to pack a house we've lived in for 6+ years??

Declan's job is now completely remote. He's been working from his basement office for the last few weeks and it's going great. He's so disciplined and works really well on his own/ from an 'at home' environment. My job is also remote. I can work from anywhere that has a laptop and internet. Our kids are young enough to not completely hate us for dragging them away from their friends and such. They're resilient and adaptable at the ages of 2 & 4. It's a time in our life where we're not tied down to an area based on our careers, and that is so freeing, so very rare, and something we just can't take for granted.

We will miss family like crazy, we will miss friends, but we know that this is our time to do it.

It's time to make that little spark of a dream into a reality.

We'll see you in February, sunny San Diego.